don’t look

Hiding by DREAMCA7CHER
Hiding by DREAMCA7CHER via DevinatArt.com

see me
even when I’m trying
not to be seen
silence is your shield
but life is my armor
how I wish to be
free
from this weight
from this crutch
it limits every step
pins me to this page
I don’t want you
to look
I don’t want to be
seen
but, oh, how I long for it
see me through the smoke
I’ve created
see me
even when I
can’t stand
to be seen
I’ve slipped behind
the silence
28 days
unnoticed
I’ve held too much
under my tongue
I don’t want
to be
the joke
but see me now
or leave me
to live
just as I am
unceremoniously
indifferent
hated
by no one
but
me

Wake Me

wake me up by sivel12001 via DeviantArt.com

this solid ache
shredded to strips
binds me blindly
to a place
that doesn’t truly exist
intangible
but more real
than anything in
reality

a place inside
my mind and body
where pleasure
meets peace
and all I can
feel
is you

the noise of life
mere memory
drifting away on the
waves
you create
within

let everything beyond
this bubble
evaporate
I am your captive
until reality ends
and the dream
begins
again

walking around
asleep
dreaming
of the moment
you will coax me
gently, brutally, lovingly
back
to life

Saran Wrap

thin veil by desdainart via DeviantArt.com

time stretches over me
layer by layer
minute by hour
holding me down
shrinking tighter
until I cannot move
or even breathe
to force me to
marinate in
my own dark
sour thoughts
rotting alone
in this perpetual
incarceration
that vibrant girl
who once glowed
like a sunset
now dulled by
the wrinkled
plasticy film of
life
and obligation
how I wish
for the light to
return
for the embers
that might still
burn
somewhere beneath
the grips
of this
stagnation
to be found
fed by some
oxygenic breath
to grow into
that vivid
dancing
flame
which once lived
inside me
lost to a life
I’d longed
and bartered for
a good life
enviable and full
but
limiting
in it’s excess
if only I could
breach the
encasement
dry my mind
in the sun
soak up the
hours
and joys
breathe it in
like those around me
freed from the
Saran Wrap
by the sharp blade
of will
and determination
or the pleasant
absolution
of ignorance
if only I could be
freed
from me
just long enough
to breathe a
sigh of
relief

be life

Alive by paulisa via DeviantArt.com

born blank
crafted and titled
for a purpose
unknown
we slam down the
accelerator
of those early
sparks of life
without knowing the
path
celebrated by all
for the wanderlust
that then mocks us
later
years shortened to
days
the brain can’t keep up
even in the
interlude
of middle life
where the self is known
and all is settled
there is a drive
to burst out
break through the
ceiling
fly higher
bigger, better, badder
limitless as thought
and sky
but the chains
bring us back
reason, logic, sanity
locking us into our
lives
why do we let it
hold us
down, back, closed?
the world is
an open book
our minds were designed
to expand
our bodies built
for adventure
our souls lit
with the fire
of creation

so go
make more
feel everything
see it all

be life

don’t just live it

Penny Kisses

there is a sonnet
of torture
in the hours
spent away
from the ferrel
heat
of your gaze
the thrumming trill
in my skin
when the absence
breaks
and your fingers
fit like lock
and key
between mine
my nerves grow
electric
as your pale eyes
drink me in
and that one
cocky brow
does it’s comical dance
for my
amusement
but nothing consumes me
like your skin
in the dark
your body pressed
against me
your hands playing
new chords
along my greedy
flesh
stealing my wit
breath
and pleasure
until I’m left
with
nothing to
give
but penny kisses
and the cheap
promise
of a new song
tomorrow
and
always

All of me

Written on my skin

The silent kiss

Of loneliness

Bitter in it’s proximity

To love

Dancing along

The curve of my throat

Longing to be

Caressed

If I curl against you

Will you squeeze it

Out

Chase it away

With the rasp of your

Beard

Clutch, bite, grip

Until my mind is

Of us

Instead of

Just me?

Will you smooth

The wrinkles from

My heart

With whisper soft

Touches

Until my head is cool

Instead of flaming?

Will you fill my soul

With the breath of

Harmony

So that the silence

Might leave

My bones?

Take it all

As much as you can stand

Every secret

Each truth

All of me

Folded tightly

Into the unending pleasure

Of being

Enough

Because

Being wanted

By you

Is exactly what it takes

To drive

Away

The dark

System

Woman within rings like Saturn
Thoughts about Saturn by sophiaazhou via DeviantArt.com

Pacing the halls of my mind

Searching for the door

That might give voice

To this discomfort

But each room is locked

Or filled with

Too much

Chaos

There is no sense to make

When you are

Orbiting the sun

Saturn, encompassed

By its own glorious

Rings

Trapped in the center

Unable to be

Anything else

But everyday

Reminded

That without them

I may just

Float away

And so I do the dance

Round and round

Closing the doors within

Shouting at

Myself

That the rooms will

Someday

Be empty

We all spin

But in sync

And our paths are

As simple as

Gravity