Engine

Sidewalk by crybabee via DeviantArt.com
Sidewalk by crybabee via DeviantArt.com

The path is mine

Alone

Each slab of concrete

Laid out before me

For me

Each hill, a push toward

Something greater

Every valley

A reward

Unwrapped gifts that promise

Treasures I cannot yet

Imagine

The steps glide forward

Not effortlessly

But purposefully

Unpacking the tightly hewn

Boulder I carry through life

Guilt, worry, fear

Dropped by the edge

Of tomorrow

Until, one morning

I will reach the core

Where grief hides pleasure

Protects it, nurtures it

My Magic

Found again

Burning away

Inside the engine

Of my curves

I feel it

Longing to be discovered

And so

I drive on

Pushing the sunrise ahead

In this thirty minute

Spell

The fire really never left

It was in me

All

Along

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Glow

Light Warrior by musicity via DeviantArt.com
Light Warrior by musicity via DeviantArt.com

pressed against
your sleepy warmth
wiped clean
by the giggling
gasping, gripping
eclipse
of your complete
attention
painted anew
by your touch
my flaws disappear
your kisses
leave feathery
starbursts
beneath my skin
I will feel them
until the day
tries to wash
this glow
away
but some of it
burned deeper
than life can reach
where you kissed
my soul
stoking a flame
I’d all but forgotten
brighter than
ever before
hotter than I
knew it could burn
don’t let it
fade
this symphony of
light inside my
very spirit
let it incinerate me
from inside
out
then watch me rise
like a Phoenix
brand new
yet somehow
the same
this is what your
love
can do

Soul Smoke

Image found on Tumblr, citation requested if known.

breathing in
the smoke, bright and
hot as it seeps
into every pocket
of my soul
only to be sent back
out, into the world
now tainted with
my fear
and hope
perhaps the wind
will bring it to
you, where you might
see it, taste it
and know what to do
know how to touch
me
in the places
I don’t let anyone
see
but doubt fills the
spaces left behind
where my fear
becomes terror
and my hope turns to
wishes
I’m left with nothing
but the smell
of a simpler time
never lived
when the moon
never cried
and the sun
was always
warm

Higher

Blue Sunset 17: Sunray WP by richardxthripp via DeviantArt.com
Blue Sunset 17: Sunray WP by richardxthripp via DeviantArt.com

Holding onto the wrungs
this never-ending
climb
breaks my spirit
be better, do more, get
higher
but who can resist
looking back
down to easier slats
or even below
to solid ground
wear I could run
free
to climb a new ladder
or a mountain
or lie down on the warm
solid earth
instead
the view sometimes makes me
slip
but when I just
look up
into the heavens I
climb without thought
dizzy with the pressure
and heavy with the weight
of what I carry
if I faulter
it is not just me
who will fall
I still long to see
what awaits
at the top
perhaps
there is balance
in the clouds
but maybe
there is just me
staring down at
the life
I forgot to
love
in my haste
to simply
be done

Away message

Fly Away by october-fairy via DeviantArt.com
Fly Away by october-fairy via DeviantArt.com

within the protective
blisterpacks
of our lives
we stare at our
screens and the
tiny reflections
which are little more
than fantasies
of ourselves
instead of reaching
out
across intersections
once noisy, friendly
chaos, now
sectioned off
perfect
straight-sided
cells
let me burst from this
hermetically sealed
prison
out into the open air
where I may float away
playing
laughing
dancing
maybe there
I’ll do more living
than dying
so
sorry I missed you
leave a message
or come find
me
trying
to free
the sun

Anew

.The baby sky III. by viviluong
.The baby sky III. by viviluong via DeviantArt.com

Awakened
by life’s winged lovers
singing breathlessly
into the brutal morning
my soul pressed
to the sky
I dip my fingers
in the soft froth
tentative with it’s dusky chill
but magic extends beyond
imagination
and the scorching
electricity of
the storm within me
warms the clouds
so they may weave
themselves
into a blanket fort
of the heavens
unencumbered by
time, this eternal
hourglass
I once believed to be
filled with dust
sparkles and swirls
with sanded sugar
minutes and hours
glittering softly
as the sun begins
to filter through
my makeshift canopy
I feel tomorrow
alive and kicking
like a newborn babe
yesterday’s child
a chance to start
anew
born without the pain
of memory
beguiled by the
beautiful world
beneath its feet
she knows nothing
of my savagery
or grace
so i pick her up
rock her, swaddle her
soothe her
I will be different
with this day
a kinder, gentler keeper
of time
for the sake of
all of those tomorrows
yet to come

a day

Born from Ashes by Ketixrei
Born from Ashes by Ketixrei via DeviantArt.com

it burns
fierce and brilliant
scorching every surface
inside and out
engulfed completely
for eternity
or just a day
until it finally dims
falling
down
to a fine silken dust
with magic daring enough
to stand against
a storm
raging winds, torrential rain
the wicked clap of
fate’s thunder
shaking it into thin
hills and valleys
tributaries of God’s anger
opening in the cracks
filling with the dark rain
of days gone
but when the clouds part
something stirs from within
a thing born without
fear or pain
simply awakening
a fluttering that presses ashes
into wings
glowing like ropes of sunshine
lighting up
the dark
coaxing itself loose
free
to open it’s wings
in fluid breaths
sending death
to the wind
with a flurry of hopes
dreams
and
wonder
gone
but not without leaving
scars
behind