Recognition

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don’t miss you at all by Antek Pyra via DeviantArt.com

“It hurts…”
“What hurts, dear one?”
“Longing.”
“That’s not pain, that’s desire.”
“Waiting.”
“That’s not pain either, impatient girl.”
“Not helping…”
“Ah, yes. Your personal brand of pain. Your love is so strong.”
“It really hurts.”
“Stop doing that to yourself.”
“Why are you here again?”
“Because, you’re reading.”
“I’m learning, not quitting…”
“Yes, you are learning. You are also seeing.”
“You want me to stop?”
“Not at all… I still want you to surrender.”
“To Him?”
“Your love makes it about him.”
“I still don’t know how.”
“Read what you wrote, all those years ago. You gave yourself the keys.”
“It WAS prescient?!”
I told you that you were magical.
“But, I’m not strong enough.”
“You are. You know you are. But you are still afraid.”
“I’m afraid that I’m changing too much, that I can’t be what he needs.”
“You aren’t changing. You are recognizing.”
“Recognition hurts?”
“You make it hurt. You want it to hurt.”
“Because I know hurt…”
“Hurting yourself is the wrong kind of pain.”
“I know… I’d like to quit that.”
“Yes! Because you are strong. You recognize the difference between that hurt, and the pain you truly desire.”
“I want more than personal strength, though. I want to be valuable.”
“Valuable to whom?”
“Someone who sees me for who I am.”
You are, sweet girl. I recognize you.
“You want me to surrender, completely… I don’t know how.”
“Then keep reading. Keep seeing. Keep learning. Keep growing.”
“And if it hurts?”
“Show it to him. He will help you.”
“Why should he?”
“Because it’s his job.”
“Is it? I’m not sure…”
“Shouldn’t he decide that? Shouldn’t that be his to control?”
“Oh… That is surrendering…”
“Completely.”

Broken Diamond

The dark by EliseEnchanted via DeviantArt.com
The dark by EliseEnchanted via DeviantArt.com

She was as beautiful as a precious gem. She sparkled in the sun and glittered in the candlelight.

The warmth that shone from inside her was mesmerizing, but if you picked her up, she was cold and hard, with sharp edges that made her difficult to hold.

He didn’t mind. He polished and protected her, wrapping her up and keeping her out of sight of others who may admire her beauty and try to steal her away from him.

Had he paid attention, he would have noticed her inner glow diminish, each time he locked her away, blocking the sun from feeding her.

Had he looked closely, he may have seen the tiny cracks that grew, each day, as she was left to try to manufacture her own light, instead.

Had he witnessed them, he might have figured out that she wasn’t the stone he believed her to be at all.

But one day, as he sat polishing and admiring his prize, he did see one of those imperfections, and held her to the light to examine her closely.

The flaws he saw were startling and significant, causing him to drop her to the ground… where she cracked into pieces.

Nothing but a bit of glass. Not created to impress, but molded to fool, ensnare, and hold captive.

And HE was the fool who had kept her, trapped inside, for so long.

Once she was free of her shell, she soaked up the magic of the sun and grew more beautiful than you could ever imagine.

She took on the fiery attributes that fed her, dancing and swirling with such magnificence that all he could do was stare, and wonder at her extraordinary new form. Before looking away, baffled by what he couldn’t comprehend.

“I didn’t know,” he cried in despair.

“You didn’t try to know,” she said softly, watching him sadly for a while, before gliding out into the lovely light of day.

As she skipped and danced and revelled in her freedom, she found a different world around her.

People watched her, others joined her, many delighted in her in a way no one ever had, while she was trapped within that capsule.

She basked in the pleasure of an audience, enveloping herself in it at every turn.

But, when the sun set, the crowd disappeared. And the darkness pressed into her lightness with a fury.

Suddenly, drawn to the edges of the shadows, she was overtaken with need. Some mysterious presence magnetized her, as though the fire within her was molten steel.

Out of the blackness strode a new admirer. Strong and capable, with eyes that she knew could see everything, and a sadness that was almost enchanting, in it’s strange, taciturn way.

He leapt on her, like a beast of the night, drinking in her light and feeding off her power.

She did not fight him, but begged him to continue, to devour her, to reduce her to the quivering, mewling mess she’d never known that she always wanted to be.

When he had his fill, he lifted her and cradled her, whispering sweetness and love, and promising that his darkness would never overcome her lightness. Then he carried her into the sunrise, so that she might feed on it’s magic, forever.

“I am but a broken diamond, flawed and discarded,” she warned, longing to avoid the despair she had caused, once before.

“You are priceless, my precious gem, and I will guide you to see that truth, as you have guided me into the light.”

Chance

It wafted in, like a feather on a breeze, and landed between us. We stared at it, lying there, beckoning us to pick it up. It danced around, filled with all the magic of fate, all the mystery of destiny, all the sweetness of hope. But still, we stared at it…

Neither of us daring enough to touch it.
Neither of us brave enough to figure out what to do with it.
Neither of us strong enough to brush it away.

But… Then the breeze lifted it and carried it away. Miles and miles away.

Perhaps it will return again. When the breeze is right, and our hands and hearts are open.

Perhaps we will meet our precious, glimmering chance yet again.

Feather by darkathka via DeviantArt.com
Feather by darkathka via DeviantArt.com

Take me

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Forever by KrisVlad via DeviantArt.com

Take me to the beach, Sir.
Walk with me, in the sand.
You could hold me close,
Or simply take my hand.

Tiptoeing through the surf, Sir,
My heart would beat with yours.
We could lose ourselves in the rhythm,
Of the ocean of emotion that roars.

Stop and watch the sunset, Sir.
Our eyes could see as one.
The world between us would shrink,
Until the dream we share is done.

Meet me in the waves, my Sir,
Breath the warm, ocean air.
Feel my love surrounding you,
Lifting you as high as I dare.

When the moon speaks to us, Sir,
It’s certain to offer the light,
To blend our hearts and souls,
With the magic of that one night.

Take me, at the beach, Sir.
Own me, fill me with you.
As it should be, forever.
Because I am taken with you.

Silence

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Of silence… by Wings of Dust via DeviantArt.com

The noise of silence,
Overwhelming.

It kicks and bites,
Unrelenting.

The power it drains,
Devastating.

It cuts and stabs,
Obliterating.

The life it takes,
Annihilating.

The love it breaks,
Exterminating.

The noise
Of silence
Is
Deafening.

Manipulator

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Day 340 by ErinBird via Deviant Art.com

Be what I need you to be
See what I want you to see
Say what I think you should say
Hurt when I want you to pay

This is not who I really am, your mind is definitely not my lamb.

Give when I tell you to give
Live where I need you to live
Like what I think you should like
Stay when you want to take flight

I don’t want to be this way, your heart is not where i want to play.

Don’t listen when I scream
Be brave when I am mean
See through me when I’m unclear
Take my love, leave your fear

I must stop this wicked game, manipulation is insane.

I am not that kind of witch, I swear I’m not a controlling bitch.

I am not a manipulator, in your will is where I find favor.

I will leave my demands on the floor,
If tomorrow… I can still be yours.

If, forever,
I can still be yours.

Manipulator.

Surrender

Surrender by Flubberwurm via DeviantArt.com
Surrender by Flubberwurm via DeviantArt.com

“What are you afraid of?”
“Everything…”
“Be specific.”
“Losing myself. Proving my ineptness.”
“But you’re not inept!”
“I can’t cope. I have no patience.”
“That’s simply not true.”
“When have I ever been patient?”
“You’re a mother. You may lose it, sometimes, but it’s in your nature.”
“Ha! I know some people who would disagree.”
“People who make you feel like you can’t cope?”
“…yes.”
“Perhaps, it’s time to start listening to your heart and not the minds of others.”
“That would mean surrendering to my heart…”
“What are you REALLY afraid of?”
“Devastation.”
“That is his word.”
“And my fear.”
“Use that patience, that hides in your heart, surrender to it and all will eventually become clear.”
“Patience that I don’t recognize in myself?”
“Yes.”
“I’m supposed to rely on something I’m not sure is really there?”
“Yes.”
“How?”
“Faith.”
“In myself? I’ve never been good at that.”
“That’s why I give you this challenge, dear child.”
“What if I fail? Like I did today?”
“You will try again. There is always a new day.”
“Why did you decide to talk to me tonight?”
“Because you needed it. You were about to quit.”
“Quit what?”
“I cannot explain. But you hold a lot of magic within you. And if you quit, the world would lose that.”
“Magic… I use that word a lot.”
“Because you feel it. It’s presence is strong. Keep loving. You feed it, with your love.”
“What if I’m not strong enough? What if this all too much? What if I’m too much?”
“Dear child, you could never be too much. Don’t question; have faith.”
“What if I need you again?”
“Surrender, dear one.”
“Surrender?”
“Completely.”

Scared

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Scared by GirL-PoiSoned via DeviantArt.com

You climbed inside
Made me see

Opened my mind
Made me BE

Gave me power
To give back to you

And opened me up
To my whole truth

I used to be scared
Of everything

I used to doubt 
My everything

The world is big
I am little

My world is hot
Becoming brittle

Reality poses
Held by fiction

The combination
Incredible friction

Don’t be scared, and don’t be rocked. In your love, I am bound and locked.

I’m still scared, but only of me. Because of this love that my world sees.

I’m scared because my axis IS turning. I’m scared because I can’t watch the burning.

I’m too scared to run, or stay, or hide. I’m still scared that this is really life.

Frozen in fear
Gripped in terror

Scared that soon

Explosion
Will correct my error.

 

 

I am

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Beauty in the Blank by confused-equine via DeviantArt.com

I am bleak?
I fight against that with everything in my being!

Because bleak may as well be blank, and I am not blank!
I am far, far from blank.

I am Bright.
I am Sweet.
I am Magical.
I am Messy.
I am Sparkly.
I am Precious.
I am Beautiful.

Like a rainbow. Or a sunset. Or the stars over the ocean. Or fireflies against the complete blackness of night.

You would say I am all of those things.
You don’t think I’m bleak or blank.
You make me see that I am extraordinary.

Maybe I was bleak. Maybe I was blank.

But you gave me the markers.
To make myself pretty.
To color my amazing world.
To write my own description.
To draw my love and fantasy.

I am not bleak. That is wrong.

I am not blank. That is silly.

I know without a doubt…

Because…
I am
Yours.

I am.

Child's love

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Under my skin by quicksilverq via DeviantArt.com

You are indelible,
You’ve made life incredible.

You love me fiercely litttle man,
My sweetest guide, my biggest fan.

The purest love you rain on me,
Which promises to last eternally.

Like magic marker on my heart,
You make the best kind of mark.

And now, life’s blessings promise to,
Gift me that much more like you!

But don’t worry, precious little one,
My love is bigger than the sun.

And though it overflows in its magnitude,
It will always, always be meant for you.