Respite

When the hurt is overwhelming, I sink inside my mind.

In that moment, the mixture, the symphony is respite.

The soft of one, hard of the other.
The chivalry of one, demands of the other.
The gentle words of one, the harsh curses of the other.
The sweet hopes of one, the dark fantasies of the other.

It’ll never be, my dark knight in white armor. It’s just a dream.

To accept the limitations,
To enjoy the experimentations,
To tolerate the lack of ministrations,
To be at peace with adaptations.

My neediness resigned. My fantasy remains hidden. My world in reality?

Is the love enough to curse the hurt away?
Is his heart strong, can it keep mine in play?
Can the needs of our family keep my needs at bay?
Can MY heart handle this constant sway?

These chains that keep me, bind me, to a life I should hold dear, are they deformed?

The reality is simple, the fantasy complex,
The reality neglects, the fantasy expects,
The reality agrees, the fantasy objects,
The reality is limited, the fantasy reflects.

In this moment, the mixture, the symphony, is respite.

But then the hurt returns.

And I do it again.

I torture myself.

For neither has an end.

Morning

Internal alarm clock,
Doesn’t register the day,
Awakens me quietly,
With thoughts of play.

My warm, naked skin,
Feels alive inside,
Soft, sweet smelling sheets,
No rules to abide.

My fingers explore,
Hot, ample breasts,
Pinching tight peaks,
Biting lip through tests.

Love the link between,
Pebbled points and core,
Continue rolling and squeezing,
Until those tips are sore.

My hands stroke down,
Silky, soft, sensitive skin,
Between scalding, damp thighs,
With delectable thoughts of sin.

Wet, swollen lips encase,
Delicate folds drenched in silk,
Love’s glorious fuck button,
Begging for pleasure to milk.

My quiet sighs turn to pants,
As I tease and please and squeeze,
Hips becoming impatient,
Rise aloft to height of knees.

Pushing into my haven,
Fullness and tightness collide,
One, two, maybe three,
Wriggling, pressing inside.

Catch myself from moaning,
Spouse I wish not to wake,
Though his fingers are much better,
Best left for sleeps sake.

Both hands work together
Slipping, gripping and sliding,
Sending me into that trance,
Self pleasure, so inviting.

My thoughts, dark and twisty,
This fantasy is something new,
It’s luscious, sticky, and sadistic,
Oh, I doubt I’ll ever share with you.

But this dream pushes me,
Deep into a torrid trance,
As I swirl, twirl, knead and fuck,
In this pre-orgasmic dance.

I’m rising against the current,
Pressing upward into the sun,
Waves soothing and crashing,
Until the burn is finally done.

Lying back, calm my breath,
Glance toward my lover,
Clock tells me not to push,
There isn’t time for another.

Easy satisfaction had,
Release is so divine,
Thanks to my dark dreams,
The pleasure is all mine.

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Insomnia

starry_night_sky_couple_nature_hd-wallpaper-456277I lay
Hot, sweating,
Wrapped up in you.

You press
Gently, stirring,
Turning me to goo.

I sigh
Sweetly, desperately,
Wondering if this is real.

You kiss
Anxiously, tentatively,
Making fire we both feel.

I moan
Writhing, wriggling,
Silently begging for more.

You bite
Nipping, sinking,
Sure to leave me sore.

I plead
Whimpering, whining,
For your fingers to seek.

You touch
Circling, swirling,
Raising me to love’s peak.

I cry,
Exploding, crashing,
Burning with desire’s flame.

You turn,
Forcing, invading,
Growling deep my name.

I gasp,
Simpering, summoning,
Another climax impending.

You drive,
Pounding, slamming,
Deep into outer space, sending.

I scream,
Muffled, unintelligible,
My inner core you’ve breached.

You roar,
Pulsing, throbbing,
Orgasm intensely reached.

I tremble,
Vibrating, quivering,
I am thoroughly spent.

You groan,
Stroking, caressing,
Backing free of my rent.

I whisper,
Loving, thanking,
Disappearing into the night.

You smile,
Blissful, sated,
“Now maybe you’ll sleep right.”

Can you?

Can you resist my sweet kisses,
peppered down your neck?

Can you refrain from sighing your content,
as my fingers skate across your broad chest?

Can you hold your tongue between your teeth,
when I whisper my desire against your lips?

Can you rebuff the salacious invitation,
of my hands, my skin, my mouth, my eyes?

Can you kiss me with that fervor,
as though it’s been days or weeks since we touched?

Can you demand my full attention,
with the flick of finger or nip of your lips?

Can you make me forget exhaustion,
as I replace yours with lust?

Can you order me to climb atop you,
when I’d intended this night to be yours alone?

Can you play me with your fingers,
like some extraordinary instrument?

Can you make me ride you like I’ve never before,
like some sexual, endurance marathoner?

Can you force me to explode in a wet, writhing mess,
and convince me to continue with just two words?

Can you wring out every tremor and quake,
as though they feed you somehow?

Can you allow me a moment, to breath, to return,
when my body no longer responds?

Can you…?

Of course you can.
Oh my, you can, you can.

Will you do it again tonight?

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Fuck me please, tonight?

Happy Girls

If you ever see a photo of yourself laughing and wish you looked that good all the time…
If you ever just feel terrible, and don’t think anything could lift your spirits…
If you ever hurt, inside your heart, in the way that women know all too well…
If you ever look in the mirror and hate what you see…
If you ever cry yourself to sleep and wake up in the morning with puffy eyes and blotchy skin…
If you ever stand in front of your lover and wonder why you don’t see heat in their eyes…

Smile, pretty girl.

Smile the kind of smile that reaches your eyes and your heart.
Smile the kind of smile that makes your jaw ache.
Smile the kind of smile that feels wrong and false until it doesn’t.
Smile the kind of smile that you get when you dream.
Smile the kind of smile that your mother, child, best friend or puppy gets to see everyday.
Smile the kind of smile that says, “fuck me, I want you.”

Just Smile, pretty girl.

Because no matter what is going on,
That Smile will make it better.

(click through on the picture for an amazing article from The Golden Girl)

Dirty Cure

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Take me to the muddy ground, push me down, roll me around.

Knot your fingers through my hair, kiss me hard, cut off my air.

Make me feel your physical desire, press against me, fill me with fire.

Pin me into the rain soaked clay, growl and rumble your craving for play.

Grind against me, force me to beg, tease and shift, pin down my legs.

Rip and tear obstructing clothes, grin and chuckle as my humiliation grows.

Slide your strong lips across my throat, nip and bite, I’ll sing your favorite note.

Lick your way down to peaks so sweet, enjoy soft moans until teeth meet.

Make me whine, call me names, do it again, I love the pain.

Slip your fingers down my sides, glide my skirt up over my thighs.

Stroke my skin, kneed my flesh, at my hip, discover my undress.

Rise up above me to see beneath, my lack of panties, your breath released.

Rumble deep within your broad chest, sit on your haunches, relish my unrest.

Fingers tickle, torture and tease, hips rise up, “Please, Sir, Please.”

A smack, a stroke, then drive inside, my hands awaken and come alive.

Reaching for your thick, hard steel, you swat me away, “You’ll be my meal.”

Fervent lips, ardent tongue, vicious fingers, I cum, undone.

Writhing and panting, begging for more, you impale me quickly, that cock I adore.

Driving and thrusting, I hum your song, lifting and quaking, it doesn’t take long.

Own my body, bent to your will, wait not a moment, flip me for your fill.

Pounding rhythm into quivering walls, my climax explodes like Niagra Falls.

Spent, sated, I buckle under pleasure, allow me to recover, I’ll return it, without measure.

Lift me to your lap, rubbing off the mud, raindrops revealing knees with spots of blood.

With healing powers, kiss the pain away, I breath against your ear, “this is the best day.”

Sweetness turns to roughness, tenderness to gruffness.

Force me down to the ground again, right back to where we began.

But this time, I am not demure, I scream for your savage, dirty cure.

“Fuck me, Hurt me,” I demand, your palm meets my throat, “I am… I AM.”

Drilling down, through clenching descent, your release and restoration are eminent.

Your groans and roars and quickened pace, the agony and passion etched in your face.

I allow my zenith to bubble up from within, so that we may meet in love’s perfect sin.

At the peak of our throes, lightning crashes, thunder rolls.

Our pulses and tremors, heightened by the storm, I wonder breathlessly, of their symmetric form.

And when you rise to see me replete, allowing the rain to fall around us in a sheet,

I soak in the heat from your lascivious gaze, “I hope this weather persists… for days and days.”

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mine

kissYour breath mixes
with mine,

Your heart beats
with mine,

Your tongue dances
with mine,

Your lips mesh
with mine,

Your fingers entwine
with mine,

Your body connects
with mine,

Your moans harmonize
with mine,

Your arousal combines
with mine,

Your love tangles
with mine,

Your spirit agrees
with mine,

Your soul becomes mine.

 

 

Symptoms

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When my skin prickles,
mouth waters,
vision blurs,
back of my neck sweats,
heart races,
stomach flips…

I don’t need medicine, It’s not an illness.

When my body heats,
mind races,
lips swell,
palms of my hands ache,
throat closes,
fingers itch,

I don’t need a doctor, It’s not poisoning.

When my nipples harden,
lips part,
eyes glaze,
apex of my thighs dampens,
knees weaken,
body trembles….

I don’t need the hospital, It’s not hysterics.
I need you…  It’s arousal.

I need you…  Do something about it… Please?

Whirl

Gripped perilously in the loop
around and around
a faulty spinner.

Suspended and dangling
back and forth
a swinging pendulum.

The speed varies each day
quick and slow
a broken metronome.

Undulating through the air
up and down
an infinite roller coaster.

Please cut me down
catch and keep
this befuddled butterfly.

I don’t want to whirl any longer.

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