Saran Wrap

thin veil by desdainart via DeviantArt.com

time stretches over me
layer by layer
minute by hour
holding me down
shrinking tighter
until I cannot move
or even breathe
to force me to
marinate in
my own dark
sour thoughts
rotting alone
in this perpetual
incarceration
that vibrant girl
who once glowed
like a sunset
now dulled by
the wrinkled
plasticy film of
life
and obligation
how I wish
for the light to
return
for the embers
that might still
burn
somewhere beneath
the grips
of this
stagnation
to be found
fed by some
oxygenic breath
to grow into
that vivid
dancing
flame
which once lived
inside me
lost to a life
I’d longed
and bartered for
a good life
enviable and full
but
limiting
in it’s excess
if only I could
breach the
encasement
dry my mind
in the sun
soak up the
hours
and joys
breathe it in
like those around me
freed from the
Saran Wrap
by the sharp blade
of will
and determination
or the pleasant
absolution
of ignorance
if only I could be
freed
from me
just long enough
to breathe a
sigh of
relief

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be life

Alive by paulisa via DeviantArt.com

born blank
crafted and titled
for a purpose
unknown
we slam down the
accelerator
of those early
sparks of life
without knowing the
path
celebrated by all
for the wanderlust
that then mocks us
later
years shortened to
days
the brain can’t keep up
even in the
interlude
of middle life
where the self is known
and all is settled
there is a drive
to burst out
break through the
ceiling
fly higher
bigger, better, badder
limitless as thought
and sky
but the chains
bring us back
reason, logic, sanity
locking us into our
lives
why do we let it
hold us
down, back, closed?
the world is
an open book
our minds were designed
to expand
our bodies built
for adventure
our souls lit
with the fire
of creation

so go
make more
feel everything
see it all

be life

don’t just live it

All of me

Written on my skin

The silent kiss

Of loneliness

Bitter in it’s proximity

To love

Dancing along

The curve of my throat

Longing to be

Caressed

If I curl against you

Will you squeeze it

Out

Chase it away

With the rasp of your

Beard

Clutch, bite, grip

Until my mind is

Of us

Instead of

Just me?

Will you smooth

The wrinkles from

My heart

With whisper soft

Touches

Until my head is cool

Instead of flaming?

Will you fill my soul

With the breath of

Harmony

So that the silence

Might leave

My bones?

Take it all

As much as you can stand

Every secret

Each truth

All of me

Folded tightly

Into the unending pleasure

Of being

Enough

Because

Being wanted

By you

Is exactly what it takes

To drive

Away

The dark

System

Woman within rings like Saturn
Thoughts about Saturn by sophiaazhou via DeviantArt.com

Pacing the halls of my mind

Searching for the door

That might give voice

To this discomfort

But each room is locked

Or filled with

Too much

Chaos

There is no sense to make

When you are

Orbiting the sun

Saturn, encompassed

By its own glorious

Rings

Trapped in the center

Unable to be

Anything else

But everyday

Reminded

That without them

I may just

Float away

And so I do the dance

Round and round

Closing the doors within

Shouting at

Myself

That the rooms will

Someday

Be empty

We all spin

But in sync

And our paths are

As simple as

Gravity

Engine

Sidewalk by crybabee via DeviantArt.com
Sidewalk by crybabee via DeviantArt.com

The path is mine

Alone

Each slab of concrete

Laid out before me

For me

Each hill, a push toward

Something greater

Every valley

A reward

Unwrapped gifts that promise

Treasures I cannot yet

Imagine

The steps glide forward

Not effortlessly

But purposefully

Unpacking the tightly hewn

Boulder I carry through life

Guilt, worry, fear

Dropped by the edge

Of tomorrow

Until, one morning

I will reach the core

Where grief hides pleasure

Protects it, nurtures it

My Magic

Found again

Burning away

Inside the engine

Of my curves

I feel it

Longing to be discovered

And so

I drive on

Pushing the sunrise ahead

In this thirty minute

Spell

The fire really never left

It was in me

All

Along

Glow

Light Warrior by musicity via DeviantArt.com
Light Warrior by musicity via DeviantArt.com

pressed against
your sleepy warmth
wiped clean
by the giggling
gasping, gripping
eclipse
of your complete
attention
painted anew
by your touch
my flaws disappear
your kisses
leave feathery
starbursts
beneath my skin
I will feel them
until the day
tries to wash
this glow
away
but some of it
burned deeper
than life can reach
where you kissed
my soul
stoking a flame
I’d all but forgotten
brighter than
ever before
hotter than I
knew it could burn
don’t let it
fade
this symphony of
light inside my
very spirit
let it incinerate me
from inside
out
then watch me rise
like a Phoenix
brand new
yet somehow
the same
this is what your
love
can do

Soul Smoke

Image found on Tumblr, citation requested if known.

breathing in
the smoke, bright and
hot as it seeps
into every pocket
of my soul
only to be sent back
out, into the world
now tainted with
my fear
and hope
perhaps the wind
will bring it to
you, where you might
see it, taste it
and know what to do
know how to touch
me
in the places
I don’t let anyone
see
but doubt fills the
spaces left behind
where my fear
becomes terror
and my hope turns to
wishes
I’m left with nothing
but the smell
of a simpler time
never lived
when the moon
never cried
and the sun
was always
warm